A little bit of help

Well, today there have been many things going on in the house, Lately I have started to feel like more of a maid than a room-mate I’m starting to feel resentful of Colin having to do almost everything since I arrived here moving boxes, trying very hard to get some sense of organization around here  I am even unable to cook in the kitchen due to a mess that I have asked Colin to take care of repeatedly going on three days tomorrow I have also done all of his laundry as well as mine and all I have asked him for is to wipe the tables, clean the kitchen, empty dishwasher which seems to be a task, like I really understand that Colin has some health issues and his mobility is not the best but there are some things that can be done if you sit on a chair.

A lot of the stuff Colin and I have are in boxes which takes up a lot of room here and trying to move around in this apartment is very difficult so I think I will be talking to Colin in the next day or so getting this stuff moved out of this apartment  this being disorganized is really stressing me out really bad as well as my cats and really to be quite honest with you I wish I had stayed in housing now as opposed to being here as there were no messes, there was a sense of organization and not having to ask someone to do anything which I’m feeling like I have to do constantly and starting to get sick and tired of it already and have not been here for ten days yet.

The kids have settled in nicely with no problems really other than the fact that one cat gets jealous of the other seems that Kennie does not want to have Weston on the bed when he’s sleeping Kennie gets very mad with me Weston however not much bothers this cat he just wants lots of love and attention just like my Kennie they are both the love of my life I love them more than I love life itself.

Since living here with Colin I have slept very well it’s also very quiet here and would like to start looking for work very soon was thinking front desk at one of the hotels that is nearby we went to Dairy Queen the other day and they are paying $12.00/hr so I guess the wages have gone up since I was living in Calgary five years ago which is a good thing I think later I will check out the Canada Job Bank too.


Starting to get settled in my new living environment

I have to say that I am feeling good about getting through my challenges over the last twenty or so years It has been a hellish ride let me tell you.
It all started many years ago when I got married in 1983 that was my first abusive relationship all the way to present day I will get into this abusive subject later in another blog  I have also been homeless and really felt all alone with no support which was only about five years ago It was at that point In my life a struggle to survive and life was not worth living, I have come along way since that time and now feel differently about life and myself as well as looking forward to the future.
There has also been some spiritual awakenings for me too, and after a long time with many challenges  I feel like I am becoming closer to god and pray almost every day I always think of the footprints and remember that when you feel alone you are not and in fact god is carrying you at that very point in your life I’ve not forgotten that and remember seeing it for the first time the day I went to the funeral home after my mothers passing god rest her soul and my dads too they were really good people and the best parents you could ask for  I brag about them all the time.
I was really happy when my friend Colin who I have known for many years said he was going to drive out to Winnipeg to come and rescue me from the Manitoba Housing building I was living in that was full of bed bugs and was constantly spraying our apartments not to mention the property manager that  had done absolutely nothing for any of the tenants in the building phone calls were never returned  seniors having to pay $97.00 to get their air conditioners put in not to mention our windows had not been cleaned in over three long years It was difficult to see out my windows.
Now I live back in Calgary in a nice apartment a two bedroom with Colin and my two children ( my cats) two balconies workout place downstairs and my bedroom is nice and comfortable peaceful and quiet here no black mold anymore and have not been sick since leaving Manitoba Housing and sleeping quite well as well as eating healthier food.
I am very concerned about my friend Colin he is quite heavy has many health issues and smokes like a chimney I have tried everything to help him and just unable to get anywhere he smokes a pack a day does not really get any exercise and when I try to help him he just fights with me every single time not knowing what to do next other than knock my head against a wall, I have told him that he wont live very long if he keeps up these habits of his but that does not seem to matter.
I am starting to get very tired now It’s almost 6AM and have not slept all night been doing laundry for Colin so to all a good night and sleep with angels.

My talents and accomplishments

Hello one and all:
Throughout our lives sometimes we fail to remember our talents and accomplishments and If you are like me even have difficulty recognizing that we even have any and for others they don’t talk about them because others might feel that they are being conceited and immodest therefore we either discount, dismiss or really undervalue ourselves.
`I know that’s all I have ever done but have now turned over a new leaf and now I am very proud of my talents and accomplishments you should be to for we all have them, these talents and accomplishments no matter how much we undervalue them are very Important as I have realized over the last year, some of them might come naturally to you here are some of mine:
  • One thing that I cherish dearly Is animals believe me when I tell you I would not think twice, If It came to an animal and me I would give my life to save one of them.
  • One of the talents that I have that I get much praise for Is my cooking the way I see It Is throw me In a kitchen give me my music and throw away the key.
  • Some of the things that bring me joy are:

1) When I am around animals and able to help make their life better by adopting them and giving them a good home (my house of course).

2)Supporting and helping others who need It and going home at the end of the day knowing that I have accomplished something is a reward onto itself .

3) Just knowing that when I talk to others, listen and perhaps guide them and give advice should they wish me to I might have made their day and led them to lead perhaps a better life.

  • If I had to describe myself In one sentence I would more than likely say I am very strong-willed, have a good head on my shoulders, and plenty of life experience.
  • I once took a road less traveled and because of that I have become a much stronger person emotionally over time.
  • What got me through most of my struggles Is my belief in and faith In god and saying my prayers everyday It also helped to keep me sane when I was going through a rough time and feeling all alone.
  • Although It has taken me much courage one of my biggest life’s accomplishments is leaving my abusive relationships, being able to talk about It and perhaps one day might turn Into a book In order to help others.
  • I believe that my spirit has called me to reach out to others, be an Inspiration and tell them to never give up on their hopes and dreams.
  • If I could do anything that I wanted to I would save ALL animals from abusive people and the world from global destruction which to me is Inevitable.
  • The most valuable gift that I could ever give anyone Is my friendship.
  • If I could redo the last 5 years of my life I would have tapped Into my sixth sense a lot more than I have.
  • Some of the biggest risks I have taken Is after leaving one of my partners was having to go from shelter to shelter for almost a year to eventually travel halfway across the country, another one of my biggest risks was having got married back In 1983 when I was 19 It ended up being a terrible mistake and costing me dearly In the end.
  • I have a real passion for saving all animals and the world.
  • When I take time to listen to my heart It tells me I would really be good at taking care of animals, be an animal advocate,and be an Inspiration to others.
  • The best portrait that I have of myself Is being a role model for others.
  • One of the things that I do well is cook.

More packing

Oh my god!!

The time is getting closer nine days only!!!! talk about excitement but, at the very same time I am sad only because I will be leaving my good friends behind in the building.

I will be missing my friends here so very much and quite sure that it will be a very emotional day for me when I do leave,  I have promised them that I will be returning for a visit in the coming months hopefully to be renting a car to drive out here to Winnipeg.

On the home front Colin and I have kept in close contact everyday needless to say I am looking forward to seeing him when he arrives here to come and pick me up and head all the way back home taking our time across the prairies, can’t wait to take some pictures on the way back so looking forward to it.

The last couple of days my sleeping schedule, as usual is completely out of whack last night having been Saturday night I went to bed at around 6:30 pm was so tired after having not slept for a couple of nights and did not wake up until after 6:00 pm, this evening (being Sunday) still not feeling like I have had enough rest but when I get to my destination after moving I will be doing nothing but resting and more than likely starting to read my books as well as trying to find a job fairly soon aside from my Avon.

I told Allan on Saturday that I will be moving he was very sad to say the least, we have been friends for a few years now although we have had our differences like everyone else does. I have realized just how much that I am going to be missed here by many people.

I was looking on Kijiji tonight and wow its unbelievable how many jobs that I have found in Calgary already, I am hoping that I will not be out of work for too long as I’m already quite low on my funds.

Eleven more days

Hi Everybody:

Well, as the topic reads, eleven more days and counting until I leave here and can finally start to recover from all the health issues I have had over the last few years and find peace and quiet without having a whole bunch of drunken people on my floor knocking on doors at all hours of the night as well as making noises from one end of the hall to the other, seems the closer I get to moving day the more I am getting excited to move out of Manitoba Housing to begin a new chapter of my life.

My friend and I were finally able to come to a few resolutions about our issues so I am now happy to report that I will, in fact be moving out of this apartment block thank god.

I am really looking forward to having a bigger bedroom with 900 square foot space with a balcony and another balcony in the master bedroom, apparently there is also a workout facility in the building among many other benefits  the best part is though I will be able to see the Rocky mountains from afar with only 90 minutes drive, I can’t wait to go back to Banff and smell the mountain air.

My packing is going well am able to take my time and in the last day or so I have felt quite overwhelmed with all this paperwork that I must get sorted out and file.

I will more than likely sleep for a few days and really rest and relax, unlike what I have been able to do here  for a very long time.  I can’t wait for a barbecue and cook a filet mignon with carrots  butter and maple syrup with a stuffed baked potato and oh did I forget to  mention ribs?.


Hi everyone:

Well, today is Monday and as the title says we are having a heat wave here in Winnipeg, second day with temperatures above thirty and today we hit 40 with the humidex I was smart and did not go outside stayed in my apartment all day stayed away from everyone.

My stress level has gone way down now since I have found out I will not be moving I seem to be sleeping better as well as my blood pressure has not risen. My day was better than yesterday however I’m still very disappointed at the fact that I must now stay in Manitoba Housing complex.

I will now be looking for a different job here in Winnipeg but would like to continue to work as a Market Research Interviewer as I like doing that job and it does not have any stress and able to sit down for long periods of time .

I was really disappointed last month as I was only working a total of twenty-eight hours for the entire month I barely made it through with my groceries and really hope this does not continue  lets just hope that July will bring me more hours so that I can save up to move out of this place.

Happy Canada Day

Hello everyone:

It was Canada Day yesterday and have an Illness from heat stroke, I felt sick all day long and slept a good part of it.

Today, because of several setbacks it is with regret that I have to tell you that I will not be moving as planned and must say I am extremely disappointed as well as more depressed than ever because I’m stuck in this place where I live with a dead-end job and basically just in survival mode. I now have to deal with the movers and god only knows what I’m going to say.

On Canada Day I am usually on the second floor deck when the sun goes down where I am able to take pictures of the fireworks but today I feel like I have no energy, tired as ever and feel like I have not slept in a week and really don’t feel too much like writing in my blog today so I will say good night and will write more tomorrow.

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