The end of the weekend update


This past weekend has been all full of up’s and down’s Saturday was not too bad, I had many things to do like my banking, getting ready to move into my new apartment and I think the most stressful thing I had to do is go back to the apartment where I used to live with Colin, I had felt very anxious and nervous not knowing what to expect upon entering. Much to my surprise I was happy to find no-one at home and the reason I say that is simply because all Colin and I have done is fighting and arguing and that kind of stress is something that I can do without as I’m stressed out enough, anyway I finished doing some packing but started to get tired a couple of hours later so I was planning on coming back on Sunday to finish off all my packing and so I took a taxi home and went upstairs to get some rest.
Sunday however was anything but a pleasurable experience the first part of my day was great had plans to go up and see my new landlord do inspection and get my keys which I did no problem then I called some movers that were recommended by the shelter staff they showed up at the apartment complex and we went up to the apartment much to my surprise when I tried all of my keys none of them worked so I was locked out! There are no words to express how I was feeling but you can just about imagine so I called the landlord and she explained to me that if I was not on the lease which I was not there was nothing that she could do except for me to call the police which is going to cause me more of a headache than I already have so that’s exactly what I did.
I will have to continue part two of this story tomorrow as I am getting very tired.
Goodnight everyone

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Updates for the week


Hello everyone:
Well, I am extremely happy now, the last time I wrote in my blog I had many things up in the air not knowing which end is up.
I was able to get my apartment a one bedroom that excepts my children (the kids Keenie and Weston). The landlord is very nice and is very strict regarding bylaws meaning that it has to be quiet in the building after a certain time which I like, he will also not tolerate any late night parties which I am very happy about, needless to say I am very anxious to be moving/getting settled in my own place. I am also looking into getting movers in the near future and to be reunited with my children.
I recently spoke with one of the ladies at the pet resort and Keenie and Weston are doing great it almost makes me wonder if my children will even want to come home after having so much fun at the pet resort, I am just glad the kids are happy and since they are it gives me peace of mind, needless to say I will have no problem in the future taking my cats back out to the resort should I need to leave town or something comes up. Country Club Pet Resort if you are interested to learn more here is the link http://www.countryclub-petresort.com/.
I also had an appointment with the worker for Income support today (she comes to shelter every week) and I was able to get the funding that I needed to move into my new place so everything thankfully is falling into place and will finally be able to have some normalicy in my life and get on a regular sleep routine all I need to do now is get my furniture (two of my bookcases, bed, file cabinet, dresser drawers,high boy and my chair in the bedroom and get my boxes that have been packed from months ago brought over to my new house and and give the landlord my money and will get the keys hopefully soon.

Another trip to the hospital


Hi Everyone:

It has been a while since I did my last post, it has been a very stressful week with many things happening here. As of Monday night yet again Colin, my room-mate is back in hospital only this time it is not an infection but rather blood clots in his lungs. Most of this week I have been beyond stressed out been cleaning this apartment from top to bottom rearranging many things like the apartment as well as packing up my boxes so as soon as there is a one bedroom apartment available I will be taking it, I am looking forward to moving out on my own again with my children (cats Kennie and Weston) and the stress of living here will hopefully be gone.

I am so worried about Colin,I have known him for twenty-six years and I have had a few times this week where I have cried endlessly not knowing if he will be returning home not knowing what his prognosis will be, not knowing what the future holds for Colin. He really has no clue how much people care about him. When we spoke briefly on Wednesday night after me coming home from work I was so upset because he told me that he does not think that anyone cares about him no matter how many times I have told him differently Colin still refuses to believe it so I guess what I say makes no difference I have tried everything to help Colin the end result for me always seems to be banging my head against a wall unfortunately for him he has now pushed me away which makes me very sad because it did not have to happen that way.

I called the Foothills hospital this evening and spoke with his nurse she gave me some updates he is now on oxygen with blood thinners  apparently very depressed because no-one has been visiting him which for me is frustrating I work during the week and do not get home until late, this weekend I was going to go up and visit with him but think I am starting to show signs of burn out with having to clean this entire apartment  do my laundry, try to catch up on my sleep with doing what seems to be endless amounts of dishes not to mention I have deliveries to make for my Avon clients and get my Avon campaign books out for delivery I have about three hundred of them to deliver.

Tomorrow being Sunday I plan to get much rest and do as little as possible except sleep, tonight I just finished doing my laundry and the third load of dirty dishes meaning all of Colin`s tupperware that has been stuffed away for I have no idea how long have to tell you it was disgusting I also need to get some groceries in the house so that I can do some cooking for my work week.

Things that I avoid asking for help with


Helping hands

1) Emotional support as I have done without for many years and had to figure things out for myself.

2) Financial support even though there have been many times where I have been so down and out with no where left to go I had to ask a friend because I was so desperate for money because I was out of food.

3) People moving me I am so sick and tired of people saying that they are going to help me move when all I end up with is nothing but excuses.

4) Doing my laundry I much prefer to do my own laundry and no-one else touching it clean or dirty.

5) Advice I try to avoid asking for advice from others unless of course I have thought things through and unable to still reach a decision.

6) My grocery shopping, as I like to take my time, look at the prices carefully and compare from other places, spend less and still have money in my pocket when I leave the grocery store.

7) Cleaning I have a certain way of doing things and now that I am older I am very much set in my ways and do not like anyone helping me clean.

8) Looking after my kids ( they are my cats Keenie and Weston) I am the only one that will discipline my children and give them everything they want including their treats Weston loves attention from everyone and Keenie only wants to be around me and he gets tons of love and attention all the time from me as well.

9) Dealing with my own personal issues as I do not want to burden anyone else with my problems they have their own too.

10) When I am grieving I usually go into seclusion and don’t talk to anyone I have a problem asking for help and very stubborn too.

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More packing


Oh my god!!

The time is getting closer nine days only!!!! talk about excitement but, at the very same time I am sad only because I will be leaving my good friends behind in the building.

I will be missing my friends here so very much and quite sure that it will be a very emotional day for me when I do leave,  I have promised them that I will be returning for a visit in the coming months hopefully to be renting a car to drive out here to Winnipeg.

On the home front Colin and I have kept in close contact everyday needless to say I am looking forward to seeing him when he arrives here to come and pick me up and head all the way back home taking our time across the prairies, can’t wait to take some pictures on the way back so looking forward to it.

The last couple of days my sleeping schedule, as usual is completely out of whack last night having been Saturday night I went to bed at around 6:30 pm was so tired after having not slept for a couple of nights and did not wake up until after 6:00 pm, this evening (being Sunday) still not feeling like I have had enough rest but when I get to my destination after moving I will be doing nothing but resting and more than likely starting to read my books as well as trying to find a job fairly soon aside from my Avon.

I told Allan on Saturday that I will be moving he was very sad to say the least, we have been friends for a few years now although we have had our differences like everyone else does. I have realized just how much that I am going to be missed here by many people.

I was looking on Kijiji tonight and wow its unbelievable how many jobs that I have found in Calgary already, I am hoping that I will not be out of work for too long as I’m already quite low on my funds.

Eleven more days


Hi Everybody:

Well, as the topic reads, eleven more days and counting until I leave here and can finally start to recover from all the health issues I have had over the last few years and find peace and quiet without having a whole bunch of drunken people on my floor knocking on doors at all hours of the night as well as making noises from one end of the hall to the other, seems the closer I get to moving day the more I am getting excited to move out of Manitoba Housing to begin a new chapter of my life.

My friend and I were finally able to come to a few resolutions about our issues so I am now happy to report that I will, in fact be moving out of this apartment block thank god.

I am really looking forward to having a bigger bedroom with 900 square foot space with a balcony and another balcony in the master bedroom, apparently there is also a workout facility in the building among many other benefits  the best part is though I will be able to see the Rocky mountains from afar with only 90 minutes drive, I can’t wait to go back to Banff and smell the mountain air.

My packing is going well am able to take my time and in the last day or so I have felt quite overwhelmed with all this paperwork that I must get sorted out and file.

I will more than likely sleep for a few days and really rest and relax, unlike what I have been able to do here  for a very long time.  I can’t wait for a barbecue and cook a filet mignon with carrots  butter and maple syrup with a stuffed baked potato and oh did I forget to  mention ribs?.

Happy Canada Day


Hello everyone:

It was Canada Day yesterday and have an Illness from heat stroke, I felt sick all day long and slept a good part of it.

Today, because of several setbacks it is with regret that I have to tell you that I will not be moving as planned and must say I am extremely disappointed as well as more depressed than ever because I’m stuck in this place where I live with a dead-end job and basically just in survival mode. I now have to deal with the movers and god only knows what I’m going to say.

On Canada Day I am usually on the second floor deck when the sun goes down where I am able to take pictures of the fireworks but today I feel like I have no energy, tired as ever and feel like I have not slept in a week and really don’t feel too much like writing in my blog today so I will say good night and will write more tomorrow.

A brand new start


Hello everyone:

Well, today I am filled with peace and very calm my blood pressure has not risen at all.

 I am so looking forward to whats in store for me in the next couple of weeks and although the moving will be stressful enough It will be a welcome change to be in a bigger city that has nothing but friendly people not to mention there are a ton of jobs out there in Calgary that I can apply for as well as feel safer on the streets walking.

Colin, my friend has done so much for me been a listening ear, giving me so much emotional support,  saw me through being homeless out on the west coast and now he’s going to welcome me into his home so that I can get healthy as I am not very healthy now due to the issues in housing like black mold that I must,  at the moment deal with.

Colin, my friend I have to tell you that he has done more for me than most people I know and helped me out of so many tight binds. I will be moving in with him for a while until I get myself set up with a good job and have some financial stability behind me.

I’m looking forward to moving out of here although the issue of packing  is really very stressful especially having to go through so many papers and sorting stuff out , however,  the good news is that I’m over half way done thank god I cant wait to get this move over with and out of this province for good.

Good-Bye Winnipeg Manitoba

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