Hello to one and all:
Looks like we are In for another beautiful day I think spring has sprung
what can I say Im an eternal optimist I refuse to believe we will get more snow some have said that Its not over yet I beg to differ…I was just looking at my last blog entry
wow been a couple of months already gee how time flies anyways many things have been happening with my life over the course of the last few months and more recently It seems that I am having some really serious concerns about this Insomnia I keep having It seems to be getting much worse perhaps I need to start doing stairs again I should have never stopped, that really wore me out anyways all that aside …I have noticed that since I have taken on this heavy responsibility of being part of the committee that I have changed from the person I am to someone that I am starting to not like anymore
Im not happy, stay to myself more for the love of god I dont even smile anymore that Is so not me and think a big part of It Is because of all this negative bullshit that happens In this fucking building seems these days people lash out at me, get fucking yelled at, and when you try to do something nice In the building for people to make It a better living environment all you get is gossip and backstabbers that seem to want to talk behind your back all the time
and really to be quite honest with you I felt so good when moving In here and dam It why am I so sensitive to stuff It gets so frustrating for me sometimes
and now after only being on this committee 2 months Iv had enough I do not like who I have become so have to put an end to this committee thing once and for all and leave It behind me which makes me because I could have made so many changes but there was so much resistance along the way from others It has made me
from all the stress It causes me which leads me to another reason why and that Is my health Is really starting to have a really bad effect on me It seems that I can no longer handle the stress that I once could I have also noticed some not so good changes In me and have become what I once was all over again seriously not a good place for me never was and never will be now being the sensitive type that I am not to mention at the best of times Its a real pain In the ass for me, unfortunately I pick up on everything here not only negative shit, I see Into the future, I know how people feel even when I am not near them and yes I do feel what your feeling somedays and you know who you are even you and more recently I have tapped into another one of my abilities which Is sometimes scary for me only one of my friends knows what I am referring to here that lives In this building and I know I can tell her anything and It wont go anywheresome might say that I am very sensitive and emotional well Im here to tell all of you that yes you are correct but remmember but one thing I never asked to be this way this Is just a part of me eithier you fucking accept It or you fucking dont If you dont go to hell because that just prooves to me that you are unable to accept the person that I am and I wont change the way I am for people anymore my famous saying "been there done that already" trust me I use It often, I pick up on all the gossip I just have to walk In a room and not even 1 minute later I know people are talking, pretty sad that peoples lives are so boring they have to make up shit like can we say get a fucking life already
you know sometimes I wish I could just tell people to fuckoff but for me the unfortunate part for me sometimes Is I was brought up to respect others and to be nice even If others treat me differently so I guess Instead of telling people where to go and how to get there I now need to just walk away as otherwise It would give me too much stress and as I said previously If I dont stop and take a step back I will, like my dad have a fucking heart attack and just die I would atleast like to see retirement age thanks and I might also add on the west coast like Victoria BC and although Victoria Is on the fault line San Andreas I really dont give a shit If we have a tsunamai there we will all die sooner or later anyway, atleast that way I will be by the ocean which being a water sign I need to be by the water It really soothes and relaxes me and when I was out there previously I slept so much better not to mention friendly people and much more relaxing place to be like on the Island there is nothing but retirement age old people I mean you can walk down the street and people just say hello.
what can I say Im an eternal optimist I refuse to believe we will get more snow some have said that Its not over yet I beg to differ…I was just looking at my last blog entry wow been a couple of months already gee how time flies anyways many things have been happening with my life over the course of the last few months and more recently It seems that I am having some really serious concerns about this Insomnia I keep having It seems to be getting much worse perhaps I need to start doing stairs again I should have never stopped, that really wore me out anyways all that aside …I have noticed that since I have taken on this heavy responsibility of being part of the committee that I have changed from the person I am to someone that I am starting to not like anymore Im not happy, stay to myself more for the love of god I dont even smile anymore that Is so not me and think a big part of It Is because of all this negative bullshit that happens In this fucking building seems these days people lash out at me, get fucking yelled at, and when you try to do something nice In the building for people to make It a better living environment all you get is gossip and backstabbers that seem to want to talk behind your back all the time and really to be quite honest with you I felt so good when moving In here and dam It why am I so sensitive to stuff It gets so frustrating for me sometimes and now after only being on this committee 2 months Iv had enough I do not like who I have become so have to put an end to this committee thing once and for all and leave It behind me which makes me because I could have made so many changes but there was so much resistance along the way from others It has made me from all the stress It causes me which leads me to another reason why and that Is my health Is really starting to have a really bad effect on me It seems that I can no longer handle the stress that I once could I have also noticed some not so good changes In me and have become what I once was all over again seriously not a good place for me never was and never will be now being the sensitive type that I am not to mention at the best of times Its a real pain In the ass for me, unfortunately I pick up on everything here not only negative shit, I see Into the future, I know how people feel even when I am not near them and yes I do feel what your feeling somedays and you know who you are even you and more recently I have tapped into another one of my abilities which Is sometimes scary for me only one of my friends knows what I am referring to here that lives In this building and I know I can tell her anything and It wont go anywheresome might say that I am very sensitive and emotional well Im here to tell all of you that yes you are correct but remmember but one thing I never asked to be this way this Is just a part of me eithier you fucking accept It or you fucking dont If you dont go to hell because that just prooves to me that you are unable to accept the person that I am and I wont change the way I am for people anymore my famous saying "been there done that already" trust me I use It often, I pick up on all the gossip I just have to walk In a room and not even 1 minute later I know people are talking, pretty sad that peoples lives are so boring they have to make up shit like can we say get a fucking life already you know sometimes I wish I could just tell people to fuckoff but for me the unfortunate part for me sometimes Is I was brought up to respect others and to be nice even If others treat me differently so I guess Instead of telling people where to go and how to get there I now need to just walk away as otherwise It would give me too much stress and as I said previously If I dont stop and take a step back I will, like my dad have a fucking heart attack and just die I would atleast like to see retirement age thanks and I might also add on the west coast like Victoria BC and although Victoria Is on the fault line San Andreas I really dont give a shit If we have a tsunamai there we will all die sooner or later anyway, atleast that way I will be by the ocean which being a water sign I need to be by the water It really soothes and relaxes me and when I was out there previously I slept so much better not to mention friendly people and much more relaxing place to be like on the Island there is nothing but retirement age old people I mean you can walk down the street and people just say hello.I have much more to write but getting tired my friends Its almost 230 AM I will try to get on tomorrow to write more.
Take care of yourselves and each other Love you all!!
Elaine's Daily Journal 